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( DERP )

Blerp

Still kind of partially out of it, but the week's over! And thankgod. So here's some Halloween stuff~ (My decorations, not the party.)

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Life bitchiiing/rantiiiing ignore.

A lot of fun things have happened but I'll probably get to a Halloween post some time in the future. Right now I'm just... tired. From everything. Today I blanked during my speech and I've never felt so absolutely... hopeless. Like I just gave up on myself. I think for that long and drawn out silence, when I tried to find my thoughts again and just laughed bitterly at myself... It was like a terrible dream, and the realization that it was real, I couldn't do this here, not now, was like a slap in the face. I felt so sick, it was such an awful sensation.  When I found my voice again, I finished the speech and hurriedly ran out of the classroom.

I don't know. I had it down, I know I did, it just happened. It's my own fault for letting all of my outside stress affect my performance. I accept responsibility for that,  and I know that I'm just human, mistakes happen...

It's everything. My aunt and what she did to my cousin... abandoned her, cut her out of her life, like my father did to me. I couldn't believe how eerily paralleled our lives were. My mom's stress, trying to help her, to find a job...   And my own stupid emotions. It's funny, how one day they're responsible for making me so... happy, and at peace, and any disruption in that causes me to fall apart. To know reality.

Well screw reality.

I don't like either choice.

Bounce back. This horrible year will be over soon, and I can leave the bad and just remember the good things that held me together.

ignoreignoreignore 8|~

( You, boy, I hate you boy. )

I'll prolly kill my brain with this argh.

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I'm so jonesin' for Halloween you have no idea. I WANT CREEPY STUFF AND COSTUMES AND PARTIES AND HORROR MOVIE MARATHONS RIGHT NOOOOW

RIGHTNOW

PEOPLE ORIGIIIINS

( YAH )
If there's any other characters you're curious aboot just hoollaaaa 8V

Since I barely do any of these.

( HAVE SOME DOODLES )

SICK OF ME YET?

ASK ANY OF MY CHARACTERS A QUESTION

AND THEY WILL ANSWER TO YOU

NOTHING IS OFF-LIMITS, GRAWR, LARGE BOLD MAKES ME FEEL IMPORTANT

I've realized that when I'm super angry or frustrated while driving I just scream "derp" at the top of my lungs.

I think I've made it a swearword, wut.

( HAVE A DOODLE )